ভালবাসা এমন একটি বদঅভ্যাস যেটার কারনে মানুষ এক মুহূর্ত আনন্দ পাবার জন্য সারা জীবন কষ্ট সইতেও দ্বিধা বোধ করে না..

ভালবাসা এমন একটি বদঅভ্যাস যেটার কারনে মানুষ এক মুহূর্ত আনন্দ পাবার জন্য সারা জীবন কষ্ট সইতেও দ্বিধা বোধ করে না..

08 June, 2009… hotat Zishan amake bollo je ami r arif etokhkhon je natok korchilam, oita fun holeo ami je kothagulo bolechilam ta kintu real, ami bollam konta? She bollo oi j I LOVE YOU, ami onekhkhon hashlam, karon amar kache tokhon o mone hochchilo j zishan fun korchhe. Ami, zishan r arif friend chhilam. Hotat oidin ora duijon call diye amar shathe fuzlami korchilo j oder duijoner e amar proti kichhu feelings ache, ami seriously neini, karon amio bujte parchhilam je eta fun korchhe… but phone rakhar por hotat zishan abar call diye oi kotha gula jokhon bolchchilo tokhon mone hochchilo or eshob kotha amar mathar upor diye jachhce, karon amar life a ei first amake keu PROPOSE korlo… tokhon amra college a pori, 2nd year a uthar age diye… jai hok ami oke bollam je amar time lagbe… pordin almost sharadin chinta korlam je ki kora jay, coz ami kokhonoi bhabi nai j amio kau ke love korbo, relation korar kotha kokhonoi amar mathay chilona, friend der ke dektam & alltime boltam je egula foul…biyer age abar relation kisher… r ami ektu conservative bolei may b pre marital relation like kortamna! but janina oidin ki holo, vablam j zishan to onek valo boy, oke ami chinio, ektu chinta korei dekhi je ki kora jay! Tarpor vebe chinte thik korlam oke question korbo. Answer pochhondo hole yes bole dibo,hahaha! Etai korlam, or ans o pochhondo holo & yes o bole dilam… but coincidently tokhon shondha 06 ta baje, and deklam amar life er prothom valobashar code 9696 means 9/6/09 and time o 6ta!!! Amader shobkichu besh valoi cholchhilo, er kichudin por ami 20 days er jonno abroad a tour a gelam, but amader relation a konoi problem hoynai,Alhamdulillah! Amio bujhinai almost question-answer er upor base kora love evabe amar life hoye jabe, jotodin jachche ami zishan er jonno totoi jeno feel korte laglam! Amader kotha bola, meet kora shobkichue dinke din barte laglo, r ami totoi relation er vitor dhuke jete laglam. Shob relation er moto amader o jhogra hoto, but thik o hoye jeto. But 1ta time a zishan start korlo baje baje shob Slang use kora, prothom dike onek kosto hoto, oke onek bujhatam then o sorry bolto r shob thik kore feltam but regular eto continuously o slang use korto, je porer dike habituate hoye giyechilam mone hoy! Ami kichue boltam na r! Amar mathay etai chilo j ami oke onek love kori & ami or shathei thakbo! Tar o kichudin por ami ber korlam je o amar shathe chharao 1ta girl er shathe regular kotha bole and kichuta relation a ache oi meyetar shathe, ami eta bujtam but mante chaitamna, oke ask korar por o eta mene nay & sorry bole… r amito ami e, ami mene nilam & bollam je erokom double-timing r jeno kokhono na kore!(ashole ami mone-prane believe kortam j ami amar love kore gele zishan valo hote badhdho hobe,tai or prottekta vul maf kore ditam) But or erokom double-timing,slang use kora kichhue jeno komche na,ulta barte laglo din a dinei, r amio bokar moto oke eker por ek maf korte laglam! …ekshomoy zishan er financial kichu problem start hoy,ami jevabe parlam oke help kore okhan theke ber korte laglam & financially oke support deyatao ekta time a regular hoye gelo r ami gadhi amar love amar love kore-kore oke support dite laglam! evabei amader relation cholchilo… zishan amake love je kortona ta moteo na… o amake love kore, hoyto ager moto kore na, but kore toh,etai amar jonne enough! eshob shukh-dukhkher majhei amar abar England a jete holo, kichu problem er karone…! Shekhane besh kichu problem chilo dekhei ami zishan er shathe contact korte parinai, eta last year er September er kotha! But ami amar highest try korechi anyhow or update nite & amar update dite! Or birthday chilo 08 october,ami oke onek kosto kore fb te wish korlam, o amake bollo j ami tomar jonne birthday celebrate korchina, tumi nai,kichue valo lagena!ami oke onek bujhalam je happy thakte r ami to cholei ashbo…kintu amar life er shobche boro dhoka khelam tar por din e…! dekhi fb te zishan er birthday celebration er pic. Ejonne koshto painai je o celebrate koreche but pic gula chilo VOYONKOR! Or ekta versity-r female friend er shathe shob pic & khub e close pose a!ami amar chokh k believe korte parchilamna, amar mone holo j pura world ta theme gese! Then ami oke fb te message dilam je girl tar shathe evabe pic keno tulse, o amake bollo just firend & as usual ami abar mene nilam, but or dhoka deya thamlo na, aro kichu VOYONKOR pic deklam oi meyetar shathei, then ami final decision nilam je na onek holo,ebar really break up korte hobe! 13 October, 2011 england thekei Ok fb-te text dilam je break up, finally everything is finished between us, u r free to do anything!Then o sorry bollo ager motoi & bollo j deshe asho face to face kotha bole thik korbo shob! Ami oke na kore dilam, but mon a mon a vablam j nah,amito oke chara thakte parbona,last 1ta chance dibo, Bangladeshe eshe or shathe kotha bole shob thik kore felbo (amar love oke change kore dibe ei VOGAS philosophy apply kore)

Bangladesh a ashlam 04 December,2011… ashar por din ami fb te dhuklam, or id ta dekhe amar jeno heart bit stop hoye gelo, deklam IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH BORNONA !(England a kichu serious problem hoyechilo dekhe r fb te boshtei parinai age) r je girl tar shathe relationship shei meye oi meye na jar shathe or onek close pic chilo,eta new 1ta girl!amar life to okhanei theme gelo, then amader common friend der kach theke shunlam oi meye school a pore, shopping mall a dekha hoy girltar shathe, zishan naki oke dekhe or shopping bag a nijer mobile number ta diye day & then oi meye zishan ke call day & 5 days er majhei oder relation!!! amar plan chilo, oke call korbo, meet kore shob thik korbo, but shob to shesh e hoye gelo!amar etto compromise, etto sacrifice, etto love, etto trust shob jeno ekta moment ei gholate hoye gelo!ami amar sim change kore fellam! Or shathe r contact e holona… Then hotat ei year 14 February te dekha holo, tokhon or kachh theke jante chailam je ki emon holo j or kache amader 2.5 years er relation ekdom kono manei raklona? 13 october break up bolar por o ekdom 1.5 months howar agei relation a chole gelo? Answer kichue pelam na! shudhu amake bollo or present GF amar moto conservative na, o onek stylish, habijabi, amar moto ADIM JUGER MEYE NA!!! ami pore ultimately calculate kore etai answer pelam j STYLE KORA TAI KI TAHOLE ASHOL? EJONNEI KI ZISHAN AAJ AMAR NA? but amake to amar moto dekhei o propose korechilo! Jaihok oi din tar kache taka chilo na,tai amar kach theke 4000 tk jor kore nilo,pore o nijei Arif ke boleche je or so called ADHUNIK JUGER GF ke khawanor jonnei amar kach theke taka ta niyechilo.
O akhon valo job kore, amar kono support er o dorkar nai, shob milay onek valoi to ache! But o to move on kore fello, but ami??? Ami aj o parinai move on korte, akhono protita second a or kothai mone hoy, or shathe jeshob jaygay jetam, still ami oi place gulate jete parina! Onek try kori or kharap behave gula chinta kore oke HATE korte, but porajito hoye jai! Oke HATE kora ta mone hoy amar pokhkhe konodin possible hobe na!!! May b VALOBASHI TAAI VALOBESHE
JAAI…